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1. it’s waiting for him to remember me once in a while

2. it’s being there for him at 2 am and 2 pm

3. it’s changing my schedule for him, when everyone knows that it is not something i can bear

4. it’s ranting about him to my best friend when i shouldn’t be

5. it'stalking about him to utter strangers

6. it’s making a story out of every conversation

7. it’s staying up whole night, overthinking about ways to talk to him some more

8. it’s writing about him and only him
 

9. it’s going out for walks at 3 am, all alone, hoping the silence will let you hear how your name sounds in his voice

10. it’s saving him when you can’t save yourself

fall in love with poets, artists, musicians
with their queer reality

with their eyes
that see the unusual, rare,
the beauty in everything.

with their hands that are capable of
such complex, out-of-the-ordinary, unsettling art.

with their curious minds
that notice the unnoticed,
and leave you in a daze
and you smile every time because their mind is so much more beautiful than all the poetry you have ever read.

with their hearts
that wanders off, in the most unpredictable of ways, every once and for a while
and you just stare because their eyes glitter like little bulbs in the sky and you would do
anything to see them shimmer like that.

with their dreams and know what they really fantasize about.
fall in love with their art, that speaks what not everyone can hear.
and fall in love with all of their words, and their silence, and fall in love with them as a whole,
and be true.

for when you wonder what they think about you,
look at them
and they will smile at you with their eyes.
and they will create for you a vivid, many-hued picture when you are surrounded by black and white
and they will write you down, and play you songs.
in the most beautiful of ways.

that maybe
someday
luckily
you will fall in love
with yourself.